Love pt. XIII

Love pt. XIII

What am I seeing?
Is this the feeling I've been longing
or just the longing for a feeling?
How much can be stacked on the concept of believing?
Secondary thoughts always seem to conquer the evenings
Leaving me thinking of her, putting feelings in words
Knowing that every thought is decieving
She messaged me saturday night: 'Did you see the photo of us?'
And I thought I would bust, remembering holding it up
Seeing our faces before me, sitting wondering of what
Really happened that night and if this was falling in love?
So I answered 'Yes' and asked 'What were we doing?:)'
Reminiscin' me on the left of her holding a cup
One message led to another, and she finally asked:
'Are you coming, or what?'
Entering two things at the end of it: a ':D' and a 'Hug!'
And left the party after almost throwing up on the rug

We spent the night
Another wake-up in her dusty apartment
With my jeans by my feet and her thong on the carpet
This time without the feeling of being like hundreds of others
Both with brains longing to function
But with none of us really wanting to start 'em
I gladly missed my wash time
Spending a moment in lust with my little sun of the morning!

Now I'm thinking how I can turn a 'hug' to a 'kiss'
Stuck in the midst of thoughts of her distance
Love or existance? I wander in wishes
Wondering how many of my brothers
Went insane over the love for a sister!